me and myself..
am in a conflict with myself..
i want to be happier yet unable to do so.
i know only i can help myself but i find it hard to.
depressing thoughts blurred my mind
cannot think straight.. seems that my rationale had since
left me then.. a lot of things i thought i knew already
but then, not so.
shall i be more self-centred or i think i already am..
i do loathe myself to be unable to control. why am i behaving
like this? i dunnoe. i juz felt very disappointed in people.
expectations becomes disappointments.
i do know its myself.. i always say if 2 person have conflict
then both have problem but now i felt almost everyone to me..
ok, admit it, i have a problem which i cant solve.
feeling very lost, not an unfamilar feeling... raw mess of
emotions.
feeling tired... i said a lot today, though i know something
negative might happen.. was feeling jittery fter i realized
that i had said too much.. but honestly, i do not want to
become like a burden or what.
i did whatever i felt ok, was'nt meant to brag or keep harping
on wat i had done. i juz did watever i think i need and want
to do. i juz hope my friends want to be my friends because
they want to not becoz of what i had done or what i can do
for them ba. becoz i hate this feeling. God bless..