"mistakes are committed so u can learn from it"
- anonymous
"once bitten twice shy"
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i dun think i ever learnt from my prev. mistakes
kept going in cycles after one and other. juz wanted
to share with you guys that sometimes a wrong u had
committed might be too pricey for wat u are prepared to
lose. dun take forgive and forget for granted.
they actually dun come so easily. the hurt inflicted
could be the root cause of broken relationships. words
said and actions done cannot be taken back though
they were in spur of the moment.
someone can forgive u once, twice or even thrice but
not all ur life. remorse now does not help at all le.
when the whole rls had come to a point tat both are unable
to relate to each other, it's not gg to be easy to patch things up.
feeling pain and crying does'nt help. saying watever also
of no use. i know that v.well. i juz feel so failed as a
person, as a human being. so useless..
my existence in people's lives is juz like a nightmare
that they hope to forget. i think i;m losing all my
marbles now. i cant think i cant breathe. i dun know
how long can i get thru this. i'm drained. really
exhausted.
if only if only, i kept asking myself. if we could get back
to the same pt. if only we could. but i'm only a human.
cant lose you but i lost you. life is juz so contradicting.
for 2 years, for tis rollercoster ride
ups and downs, happiness and sorrows
took it for granted that things will not
ever change but sadly it did.
no right to say sorry or ask for adjuration
i can only hope that things will turn out
right.